I Shot Them All

Lebanese House In The Mountains - Lebanon

Could have been the kids
playing in the street
or the grocery store
two blocks away
or the birds chirping at my window
what birds?
there are no birds at my window
I fell asleep
molding my pillow
I dreamt
of oceans of sand
waves crashed and swept me off
my wristwatch fell into the sand
I couldn’t get it back
the waves calmed down
but a whirlpool ahead
worked its way towards me
I opened my eyes
and I saw it was him
he came in with tea
I’ve slept for centuries
but everything seems fine
the kids are playing
the store is open
and the birds at my window
what birds?
there are no birds at my window

 

I don’t want to go right now, but goodnight.

I’m afraid I’ll break your heart, you said.
But I smiled.
We were both drunk.
You and I know how to get drunk.

We know how to cheat, too,
and we know how to act.

Let’s light a cigarette, I said.
We shared it.
It was the last one.

Then when it was time for me to go, I said:

Something tells me that you won’t break my heart.
You can’t.

I don’t think you will ever leave me,
because you’re not with me.

And you will never stop loving me,
because you don’t love me.

I don’t want to go right now,
but goodnight.